I'm speechless.

There's actually lots of things that I want to say but.. I think I'd rather not. (:

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SHOPPING TOMORROW!!

With my Beaut, LQ and K2! Happy happy! After shopping gonna have BS with Lucas, M & M! After BS gonna have dinner with Lucas, Cicil and maybe Diana and Dennis! Love love!

Happy day waiting ahead of me! (:

I can't wait!

McPhoto to be uploaded soon! K2!!!!!! AMILUS!!!!! Send me the photos la!!!

):

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Number of people have asked me why I don't have tagboard! Just waaaaaaay to many! Well, I don't have because I think it'll be better if my blog is just one way "conversation"? Haha. Not that I don't wanna entertain comments... Well, FINE! I don't really wanna entertain comments because I just don't want. Hahaha. Yea. I think it's hard to please me in some things. I'm still alive anyways! You can still tell me your comment on anything that's here if you see me! (: I'd prefer it that way! (:

I'm friendly yo!

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Beaut can't sleep! She's going insane! Hahaha! She can't wait to shop! Hahaha! Someone stop her from insomnia tonight! LOL! Funny woman! Love ya! (:

I thank God for Lucas, Cicil, Diana and GJ. I thank God for my cell group members. I thank God for my classmates. I thank God for my friends. I thank for you.. You made me a better person. You made me realise my mistakes. You made me see my strengths and weaknesses.

I had a great day today!

The pre-service prayer meeting was great, the service was great, the prayer meeting was great, everything was great because God is GREAT! (:

I'm so happy. God has spoken to me an amount to give for the Arise and Build. It's a sacrifice! When God showed me the amount, I wasn't stunned. I was just like, "Ok!". But as I think about it now, boy it's a sacrifice! It's ok, it's not for me. It's for God who sacrificed His only Son for a person like me.

I'm happy today! Qian Wen came to service and it's really nice to have her! I got to speak to her about Christianity and I really hope we [E316] could make a difference in her life.

I have so many photos to be uploaded. Blueks! Me too lazy to upload! Or rather, I have assignments to do! ):

2nd week and there are so many things to submit already! Yiiikeesss!

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Tummy aches like mad. )):

When Tzehui asked me [at City Hall, on the way to Lucas' house], "when is it coming?" I felt something. Never did I thought it'll be that! ARGH! Tummy ached soooo bad! AHHHHHH!!!

He has known it for 2 months consecutively! Ahhhhhhh I won't name names! I'm so malu now! ):

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Okies, I'll get some work done now! Ta~

PS.
Preview tomorrow! I need my voice back!

I'm blur. I'm blur. I'm blur. I'm blur. I'm blur. I'm blur. I'm blur. I'm blur. I'm blur. I'm blur.

))))):

I'm soooooo blur today! I don't remember eating lotsa sotong at all! So this is what happened:

I thought there was a practice today. I went back to school from TM to meet the girls. I called Wanying, she said there's no practice. I was ok with that because I had to go back to school to meet Delphine anyways. She had to pass me the flyers for December camp. So I met her. Met Mark at the mushroom. Just chat with him.. and waited till like 1.50pm then we went back to IT school. I printed out my LOA form and he went to his 4 hour long lesson with George! hahaha. OMG! IN3D! Blueks! Dun like that subject! Zzzzz..

After everything was done, I went home.. I was soooo happy I could take a nap or rather, sleep. hehe. Oh ya! Side track for awhile. Lucas woke me up in the middle of the night! ): It was 1.50am when he called me.. He used his home phone then

he was like, "Hello bla bla [I was too sleepy to remember the name but definitely it wasn't my name!]"
Me: Huh? [with the very sleepy tone]
Lucas: Hello bla bla?
Me: What? [blur + sleepy tone]
Lucas: Oh no, sorry I woke you up!
Me: Mmmmm..

HAHA! I was soooo sleepy can? Then I couldn't sleep for the next 20 minutes or sooo.. ): Then when I woke up, I thought it was a dream. I checked my received calls and he really called! Hahaha! ROAR!

Ok so.. as I was saying, I was soooo happy to take a nap. La la la la.. I didn't realise it was already 6pm until Ate Mary called me. She asked if it was ok if I was the one to go over to Aljunied and pass Micah the flyer.. Ok, so I went out like, 7+. Here comes the very very very blur me! ):

I was already ABOUT TO GO IN THE CONTROL STATION when I realised.. I DIDN'T BRING MY EZLINK CARD!!!!! ):

I called Chris to bring for me anyone's ezlink card. Haha guess what? He brought me Paul's! Gosh! I used Primary School ezlink card! Shhhhh! HAHA. Ok so.. I was there at Aljunied. I was searching for the flyers.. guess what? IT WASN'T IN MY BAG!!!! double sad!!! )):

I called home and asked Paul to search for the flyers. He said I showed it to my mama. So I asked him to search for it downstairs.. He said don't have!! SAD SAD SAD! OMG OMG OMG! How was I going to tell Lucas, I thought. So I went home.. Apologised to M&M.. sad sad! I called home again to double check if the flyers were there or somewhere.. I was thinking of how much it would cost me already! 1 coloured printing = $0.40 can??? It was like 17 pages!! How much would it cost me because of my blurness!! I don't wanna waste Delphine's free of charge printing too la! FINALLY! Thank God!! Paul saw it on the table. He said he didn't see it earlier because it was under some papers.. AHHHHH! God, You're so good!

Sometimes, I think God just wants to see how we would react to some little things such as this. Really. I was thinking.. if I was me, the last time me.. Probably I'll do some silly stuff that God wouldn't be please of.. Hehe.

I'm happy, I don't have to worry about anymore flyers now. YEY! Hehe. I called Lucas and told him what happened. But he still wanted me to pass the flyers to Micah by tonight so she could pass it to the girls. So I went to their house and made a special delivery! Hehe. Cool, eh?

Everything was supposed to be done in 30mins.. but I made it to more than an hour! d: Funny how blurness can waste your time!

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Had Hotcakes for brunch!! Yum yum yum! It was sooo yummy. Hehehe. Yan Hua and Kaye please send me the pics! YEY! I wanna see Kaye's uhm. (8

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Photos! Photos! Photos!

Sunday after service, the cg minus Swee, Mark, Diana and I, went to Century Square to have lunch. Then went to Tampines Sports complex! (: Swee had to go for BS, Mark and I went to make up cg, Diana had to serve. Diana and I met at Tampines after doing our things, ate lunch then joined everyone else to have fun!


Presenting to you.. God's angels.. Hehe (X


Oppppps~ We can be very violent too, you know. hehe.


We just wanna eat Diana up!


Princess Diana, I like your tiara! Hehe. it rhymes!! (:


Rock chicks of E316!


Smile! (:

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Swee's birthday! [sorry, this is the only shot I have in my phoney phone!]

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POST PSLE!! (: Group photo: 1


Group photo: 2

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Take a look at our BREAKAWAY CAMP flyer! (:

It costs $30 (members) and $10 (friends)!!

Inclusive of food, drinks, lodging and FUN!! Don't miss out this awesome bonding before the year ends!! (:

It's gonna be 3 days of life changing experience!!!

Talk about year ending! It's FAST! Who could agree?? Ahhhhhh!

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Keep smiling! (:

hugs.

School reopens this week. Finally saw my classmates again! I missed them. We have new classmates though. It's gonna take time to get to know people all over again. But it's good! New people means new friends! (:

I'm feeling rather down.

I've got no mood to blog.. Actually, I was updating E316's blog but mom called us for dinner then after that, I didn't continue anymore. I watched TV then now.. here. Just updating for awhile..

I feel like crying... Actually, I cried too much already.

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Find Me In Your Holiness
Lead Me In Your Righteousness
How I Love You
Beautiful Savior
When I'm Weak You Make Me Strong
Bearing My Cross I Carry On
How I Need You
Heavenly Father

Search My Heart O Lord
You Know My Every Thought
An Open Book To You
I Placed My All In Your Hands

Falling At Your Feet
As My Whole World Fades Away
Falling At Your Feet
Let My Life Be Wholly Thine
My Life Be Wholly Thine, Jesus

Emmanuel
Emmanuel
Abba Father, Never Let Me Go

How was I when I was in love with my ex boyfriend?

I was friendster hopping and I see soooooooooo many youngsters' accounts! Gosh, their shout out is like, "I love my little boyfriend", "How do I live without my boy?", "I feel lost when you're not here with me, honey." GOSH! Who are you kidding?

I know I felt that way too.. but I realised that we shouldn't be slaves of these boyfriends! They're NOT your husbands YET! My oh my. What's up with this people? I feel that when you're NOT married yet, you shouldn't love your boyfriend as if he's already your HUSBAND! Because the fact is: He's NOT! I always told my ex boyfriend that I could never live without him, that I will love him forever, that I would marry him no matter what happens.. But see what happens? We broke up! ROAR! It hurt like knife literally slicing your heart into pieces. Why be slaves of this boyfriends when he's ONLY your boyfriend? You're sooooooooooo young. So stop acting you know what's gonna happen to you in 5-10 years time!

Get a hobby! Rather than spending time with your little boyfriend, do your homework!

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Gotta watch this! Hahaha! This is what happens when a person is really late at work and REALLY DESPERATE!

How slow can TP get? We're starting school next week and we just received our timetable today!

Anyways, I'm really happy!! My class has no lessons on weds from 12-2pm which means my classmates CAN WATCH ME SING! HEY, DON'T TELL ME Y'ALL DON'T WANNA COME! MUST COME OK! ((: It's so nice to be happy.. Shala la la.. so nice to be happy.. ((: It's on 7th November, 12.30-1.30, the time has been confirmed. So come baby come, baby baby come, come come baby come baby baby come! Hehehe.

But I'm also sad. ): Willy from the drama team called me last night. He asked if I could act as an air stewardess for this weekend's drama. I said ok. He asked me if I had something on. I said yes, my rehearsal for TP Singers. He said that he'll confirm with Sandy and call me back if he still wants me to come at 3pm. La la la.. I waited but he didn't call me. That doesn't end there! When I was in school, rehearsing our songs.. he called me! AHHHHH! He asked me if I was already on the way! OMG OMG OMG! How can! I told him no.. I said that I was waiting for his call but he didn't call me. So, I assumed that there was no need for me to come. I asked if he wanted me to come down. He said there was no need. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~! I'm sad. I wanna be there. I wanna do more things for God. I know my time is so pack now but I just wanna do more. I know I can do so much more, for Him. Never mind.. My time will come. (:

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Rehearsal today was one of the fruitful ones. (: I need to memorise my lyrics! I have 2 more songs to memorise and 3 songs to learn my notes PROPERLY! Our preview is this coming 29th. I have to be prepared! Wanna know the songs we're going to sing? Come down to TP's THE PLAZA on 7th November, 12.30-1.30pm. (: TP Divo Divas' gonna bring down the house! WOOOOOOT? Can't wait! (:

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I need a NEW earpiece! Ok, random.

Okies, till here. I wanna watch my chinese show. I'm 15minutes late!

ta~

YEY! (: I'm happy today.

I went to M&M's house. Watched so many Tagalog shows today. La la la.. It makes me so happy. Hehe. TV makes my day, sometimes. (:

I'm happy that I got to catch up with some of my classmates online too. Hehe. Hi KAYE, BEAUTRICE & AMILUS! Hehehe. I know Yan Hua must be thinking.. "Urgh, Kate! It's "AMILUS"! NOT AMILUS!" HAHAHA! HAHAHAHA! I can't wait to see you la, AMILUS!! I wanna call you YAN HUA or AMILUS! Hehehe. Ms Ou! Hehe..

I miss my K2. K2, I love you! Kiss kiss. I miss my sushi & tiny.. I miss all of them. BUT! I'm gonna see them AGAIN! next week! AHHHHHHHHHHH~ Not that I wanna see them.. But it means.. SCHOOL WILL REOPEN NEXT WEEK! *faints* Someone catch me.

BLOCK TEACHING! It's either good or bad. I'll look on the bright side of it. It will mean that I'll be more focus in my modules and do well it.. Amen.

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I was craving for chocolates before I reached home! YUM YUM! So I went to 7eleven and bought this yummy m&ms. Yum yum! It's yummy. I bought 2 other cadbury chocolates. Haha. YEY! I wanna lose weight but.. ahhhhhhhh! I just love chocolates!

Ahhhhhhhhhhh~ I tried uploading my chocolate photos but there's some prob. Never mind.

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I wonder.. why some people are difficult? Yes, I'm not perfect. I was difficult too. VERY, indeed! But.. that was because I had my own reason to be difficult! Because I didn't want any Christian fellow to touch my life with my ex boyfriend! Hahaha! Attitude, eh? But really, that was what I thought of and that's my reason. I loved my ex boyfriend so much ok, don't play! When I love someone, I'll love that person like there's no tomorrow. Wahahaha. Ok, that's enough! As I was saying... aiya, I don't know how to say la. I know that I shouldn't judge people. So but you know, because I think I'm part of it. Ahhhh~

Are people insecure of me? I think I'm nothing great. God is great, not me. If there's something in my life that's great, it's not because of me or my own ability, it's God's.

Show me how to love like You have loved me.

When I sing this line, I think of my past. I think of my attitude. "How could God love such a person like me? How could God bless me this way? How could God accept me?" Those questions pop out. Then I'll think, "If God could forgive me, love me, have compassion on me, accept me, then I have to do the same to others, even if that person is my enemy or THE MOST IRRITATING/DIFFICULT PERSON ON PLANET EARTH!"

I'm learning to love others even if this person in particular hurts me indirectly.

Am I a bad sister? I didn't know James is flying off to Brunei to meet his rich princess today. He wished! Hahaha. Nah, he's going there for NS. To meet the Congos in the jungle. Haha! I was already at food republic with Valerie, Yi Ling, Tze Hui, Micah and Meleah. We were waiting for Lucas to arrive, when my mom msgd me. Asking where I was and saying that James was leaving tonight to Brunei. I really didn't know! Man, I think I'm bad. So I just waited for Lucas to arrive.. I didn't leave soon after he arrived. I went to buy food with the girls first because nobody wanted to stand up. Haha. Funny girls! Oh and Vouranda joined us as well! (: Yey!

I left 10 minutes after Diana reached the place. My family and I had dinner at Eunos. It's near our house. Duh~! We stay at Eunos! Hehe. My parent took a nap when we reached home. They have to wake up early morning today, so yea. We left home to the airport at around 10.45pm. I was watching Cris Angel ok! I like watching that freak! Haha. So yea.. Reached the airport. Yada yada.. Stood for an hour plus.. Then off went James. But of course, we took some photos first! (: And of course, I'm the camera woman. HMP! I wanted so much to be in the photo but.. we had to pray for James first then after we prayed, they had to leave already! HMP!!! )':

Oh ya, plus I managed to see Angelo. Opppppppps~ Who is Angelo? Secret! Hahaha. He's still cute! OH MAN! Ok fine. I'll shut up. Here are the photos of the day.


Sisters I've never had.


James with buddies. Showing off their tickets!


Maurice and James. Maurice is a Filipino too. (: Met his dad & younger sis too. Oh ADVANCE HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MAURICE! He'll celebrate his 19th birthday with the monkeys, snakes, mosquitoes and many many more. Whatta celebration! Hehe.


My loves.


James just can't stop showing off his ticket!


With friends again. Finally, no more tickets!

More photos to be uploaded real soon. (:

Night night! loves.

I'm not being mean.. but.. I just realised something.. when your boyfriend has body odour, you're most likely to have too. HAHAHAHA. When your boyfriend don't brush his teeth at least once a day, same goes to you. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! THIS IS SOOOOOOOOOOOO GROSSS! I'm sorry.. I was just paying too much attention on some people.. Hahaha.. Opppssss~

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

It's not a FACT! It's just my thought and guess.. I'll never want a guy who has body odour and smelly mouth! HAHA. SO GROSS!

Dream boy's calling name to join him in our lala land!

La la la.. I haven't been blogging for some time that I don't know how to start already.

Uhm, ok let me start off by saying.. HELLO EVERYONE! I know some of you missed me.. Hahaha.. Well, I've been really busy with many many things. Firstly, is my work! Ahhhhhh~ They asked me to extend my work for one more week because the new receptionist quit ON MY SUPPOSEDLY LAST DAY!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ So yea.. had Jiemei with me. la la la..

Had Post PSLE party on saturday! So many psle students! It was great to have all of them. E316 only has 2 photos to share... waaaaaaaaaa! But not now.. I can't find my cable.

Oh guess what? Karen has left E316.. So has Guen! ): They're all gone. I'm sad. I miss both of them. I saw Guen last sun and it was really really great to see her once again. I don't see her everyday anymore. Speaking of meeting everyday... I HAVE BEEN MEETING DIANA FOR THE PAST 7 DAYS! And tomorrow is our 8th day meeting in a row! It's soooooo good to see her everyday. Hehe.

Preview will be on the 29th Oct. It's nearing! OMG! I haven't memorized my lyrics yet... And my notes?? HAHA! Thank God for this 1 week holiday for me. I can memorize my song lyrics.. (:

This post is very disorganised. Haha.

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Why is there always people irritating us everyday? I really wanna be a better person. I know I've changed a lot. But there's still more to polish. Especially when the word ''irritance'' pops out. There's this person who irritates me from the very first time I got to know him. I feel like slapping him everytime he calls me. I tried to avoid him but I can't continue avoiding him. That won't solve the problem. So I told myself that I'll change my attitude towards him. He called me today TO ASK FOR A FAVOUR! God really gives us challenges that we DISLIKE!!! Waaaaaa~ I didn't feel like killing or slapping him. I just nod and said ok. It didn't hurt. I wanna love people like how God loved me. I think I was worse than him before. So, I'm learning.. (:

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I had the best dream of my life last wed!! (:

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I don't understand why people always say YOU when we talk about bla bla bla. There's not a single people person who said that but MULTIPLE! I just don't understand. God tell me why.. Is "YOU" really bla bla bla? I won't speculate, tell me.

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I can't believe school's reopening next week! That's sooooooo fast!

I wanna sleep now. Meeting Diana AGAIN tomorrow. la la la.. I love Diana!!!! (:

I've been super uber duper busy this week. Haven't been sleeping enough. Thank God I have internet at home now. YEY! I'm going to continue blogging tomorrow. I'm really tired now. Eyes' half open. Zzzzz.

Just a quick update.

Had dinner with Guen, Lucas, Karen, Jesric, Michelle, Derrick and Mark last night at ethan's. Yey, today is my 2nd last day at work. I will miss working here. Although I have many million things to do, I still get things done fast. Thanks to Him.

Tomorrow REHEARSALS! My heart goes sha la la la la...! YEY! Finally.. Like really finally! YEY!

It's Pauline's first day. Good to have her here at work. So yey! Happy happy!

Ok, I gtg now. See ya'll.

It takes maturity to rule over emotions.

God, help me. You know what I mean. I don't want to feel so much.. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~! AHHHHHHHHHHHH! Make bla bla bla bla bla! Make me bla bla bla bla bla! He gives me bla bla bla bla bla all the time! )'=

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~! GO AWAY!

One day I decided to quit...

I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would
not quit." He said.
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared
to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6
months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".
"I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others."
He said.
"The bamboo had different Purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?"
I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give Me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.
For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.
Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is,
tell the problem how Great the Lord is!

There were so many times I wanted to quit. So many reasons I gave Him.. There was a time I ACTUALLY quit. But God never gave up on me. I have heard and read this story many times before but truly God reminds us of all these kind of stories whenever we need them, for us to be encouraged. Those lines that are in bold and larger font what strike me the most. Especially this: "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots"

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!

I just feel like screaming my lungs out.

I want to go to school! I want to PRACTICE! I NEED to practice! My voice is like a rusty nail now. I haven't been singing. I don't sing when I reach home anymore. All I want to do is to lie down, munch my sunflower seeds and watch tv. Sounds like a lazy girl. Haha. HEY! I work so hard ok! I need to rest plus it's my holidays and I'm supposed to be enjoying it! But if I stay at home too much, I'd die of boredom. GRASS IS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE! So yea.. That I truly know. It always happen to me. Haha.

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It's all coming back.. and I don't want it to be this way. I need a break from YOU! I can't keep on thinking of everything that.. [bla bla.. only God knows]! Ahhhhhhhhhh~!

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Back to work. Phone wouldn't want to stop ringing! People wouldn't want to stop asking me to do many many things at one time. Wonder why I still have time to blog? Beats me!

Love ya all.

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