My eyes are teary. I just finished crying. )=

I know.

I just watch "...ing" It's a Korean movie. It's heart wrenching. I cried soooooo much. ),=

Go watch it if you enjoy crying. Haha. OMG! I'm really sad. I feel sooooooo sad for the guy.

The movie is FUNNY at first.. then ROMANTIC [I LIKE!!!].. then extremely saddening! Gosh I cried as if I could feel the pain! As if I was the guy! gosh! I'm really sad..

But I wonder.. Will I find the one for me? I know God has already planned it but I'm just curious and.. I don't know. Maybe my heart is just fragile. Maybe I have just been throught quite a lot when the topic is about love.. Yada yada!

I wanna fall in love but I'm afraid.

I think I'll cry myself to sleep.

*claps*

YEY! I'm Baptized! How awesome can it get? I'm super happy. Thank You, Lord! love love. I don't have the photos yet BUT! Thanks to Ms Karen Wong! She already uploaded the photos here. Go check it out. I'll upload the other photos when my mom send me the photos from our digi cam. Oh and not forgetting, from Ghij's digi cam as well. (=

I have availed myself to God's grace and therefore, I am dead to sin! Hallelujah!

Thank to everyone who came to support us. Thanks for the gifts! Thanks for everything!

Oh ya!! They made us eat apple, grapes and SALT!!!! O.o *faints*

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When you say:

It's impossible,
GOD'S says: All things are possible
(Luke 18:27)

I'm too tired,
-I will give you rest
(Matthew 11:28)

Nobody really loves me,
-I love you
(John 3:16)

I can't do it,
-I can do all things
(Phil 4:13)

I feel alone,
-I will never forsake you
(Heb 13:5)

I'm afraid,
-I have not given you a spirit of fear
(2 Tim 1:7)

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Guess what? It's HOLIDAYS! No, it's not self declaration! It's OFFICIAL! Hahaha I don't have any more paper! YIPPEEEEEE!!!

But is the grass truely greener on the other side? I pray that this holidays would be a great one. I hope it'd be HAPPENING! Someone DATE me! I'm available! BOOK ME before I'm fully booked, I tell ya. Hahaha!

***

I wanna blog more but I don't know what to blog ler. Sigh. OH YA!! I was sooooo sleepy while I was doing my paper! Like, what on earth? I was like yawning like nobody's business. I hope nobody noticed it. Haha. Ok random stuff.

I'm bored. I don't know what to do now.. OH YA! I wanna watch HSM2! Gosh! I was multi-tasking that day that I didn't finish the whole show!

OH!!! You guys should watch ratatouille [rat-a-too-ee]!! It's very nice!!

Yada yada.. Ok fine, I'll shut up and head to HSM2 FOR REAL!

I might come back later to say how cute Zac Efron is, again! Hehe.

This is my most.. uhm.. unusual entry.

I'm going to post SOME of my photos when the camwhoring attacks me.

Camwhore is the modern definition of the word narcissist, from the word narcissism, only with a camera. HEHEHEHE! Don't pretend you're not one too! Hahaha.


































This was taken after my cousin's birthday party. And I love my dress cause it's PINK! YEY!

Hahahahahaha. I just wanna laugh at myself for posting this.

***

Can you guess where I am in these 3 class photos?



For real, good night! (=

So I'm back.. And So?

I wanted to blog more just now but my internet connection is not cooperating with me well! URGH!

Here are some of the pics taken when my mom, younger brothers [minus James] and tenants went to Marina Bay [where the NDP was held at] to watch TEN MINUTES [SHUCKS!] fireworks! We waited for like almost 1hour can?


I felt like half of the population of Singapore was in City Hall.


Check this out! O.o


Christopher and I while waiting for Kuya Elfie! My! He went to Marina Bay instead of City Hall!


My s.. opps, bro, I mean. Paul.


Ian is VERY SHY! Gosh!


So this is how it looks like inside..


What are those people watching? No, not those 2 men. The people at the background..


Juggler!


Not so many people yet..


This is how it looks like from my seat.


Still early!


So many children..


From my seat.

I was so hungry. I hadn't had dinner yet and so my bros and I went to grab a bite. RAMLY BURGER!!! *burps*



They even have flee market!


Singapore.. Food Paradise.. No, you can't see it here cause it was just impossible for me to go there and take pic! TOO MANY PEOPLE, what else!


Yippppeeeeeeeeeee!


I wanna ride! :x


The toilet! ROAR! But..... )=


They even have dancers!


Random..


See, there's actually a ladies. I almost fainted! I was sooooooooooo blind! )=

THE AFTERMATH!!


PEOPLE AND CARS EVERYWHERE!!


PEOPLE!! PEOPLE!! PEOPLE!!

All the photos were taken from my handphone so don't complain! It's only 2mp ok! My mom hasn't sent me the photos taken from the digi yet so yea.. I have more photos there! Gosh! My bros are soooooo cute!

I know, I know.. I should be studying but PLEASE! I need a break too right?

ta~

I need to stop getting irritated easily! Why is it that when some people tell me something or do something that uhm....... yea, I get irritated!!

LORD, HELP ME! Cast this spirit out!

Hey yo, water baptism this SUNDAY! Can you BELIEVE it?

YEYEYEYEYOOOOOOOOO!

I'm soooo excited. (=

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I'm sorry for that intro. I just can't stop laughing! I saw a very very very funny photo, to me at least. I know if I see something funny I'd post it here. But not this time. I don't want to get into trouble with the "law". HAHAHAHA!! Gosh, Ian knows what that photo is. OMG! I can't stop laughing! It just looks sooooooooo funny. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I'm so tempted to post it here but NO! NO NO! I don't want to get into trouble. Like, serious trouble. I shall continue my laughter first.. BRB, I wanna look at the photo again!

I'm just a human being. I can't help it. That photo was just super funny. As in EXTREMELY FUNNY! Wish I could post it. I feel so selfish now.. Hahaha. But NO! I shall not post it! NO NO NO though I'm super tempted.

***

Zac Efron is super hot. OMG OMG OMG! For almost 5 hours, all I did was to look at his face in YouTube. OMG OMG OMG! He said he like girls with dark skin.. GOSH! PLEASE! I'm DARK! YES I AM! RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! I WISH.. wish only cannot meh? I WISH he was MINE! My Zachary David Alexander Efron, my love......

I wish I could steal him from Vanessa!


THE BODY! *drools*


He's smiling at me. awwwwwwwwwwwww~


OMG OMG OMG! hawtness~


GOSH! THOSE LIPS!!


He's staring at me! *gawk*


I love him. "I know pronounce you husband and wife" I WISH!

***

Urgh, some people just don't get the message! I dislike it.. There is this person who have been trying to add me in friendster for like 4 times! I keep rejecting her request. Reason being, I don't know her and she's NOT at least familiar to me! Gosh!!

I don't like adding people FOR FUN! It's not my forte. If they are at least familiar to me or, if they are Filipinos STAYING IN SINGAPORE, then I'd add them. If they are my friend's friend whom I have MET IN PERSON BEFORE, I add and accept their request. Gosh! As simple as that! Why can't she understand that?!

I have 1 more person to reject and I feel bad about it. He's neither from my primary sch nor secondary sch! He's just my friend's friend and for the record, I've never met him before.

ROAR! WHY MUST PEOPLE KEEP ADDING PEOPLE THEY HAVE NEVER MET BEFORE?! GO PLAY TRAFFIC!

***

DBIS exam on monday! YADA YADA YADA!










































HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT TIME IS IT? Summer time, it's our vacation!
YIPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

But what do I need??

















WORK! )=

I don't wanna stay at home doing nothing. I can't afford to sleep, eat, watch tv, internet all month long.. I'll get super lazy to go out too..

Ok fine, I won't think so much first. I NEED TO STUDY FIRST

ta~ I'm going to uhhmmm.. watch tv.
oppssss.

I know I'm back.. I can't sleep. I've been thinking a lot.

When I look at YOUR world, I feel so small. How could I ever fit in? I just feel so small. Is it because I always look down on myself or I feel that I'm not worth as much as YOU or them? I don't know.. but I believe that there is a lot more in store for me. I think I need to get out of my shell so that the blessings would just come pouring on me. Just like Lazarus.. Jesus commanded the stone to be rolled out for Lazarus to come out of his tomb.

Lord, guide me! I feel like a lost sheep wandering around.. "Is he my shepherd? Is that my shepherd? Who is my shepherd?" [No, I don't mean God here as my shepherd. It's something else. So please don't assume! (= ]

I will seek Your kingdom first and Your righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto me. It's You I really wanna seek first and not any other things. Only You.. Help me, Lord! I wanna focus on You again! I can't afford to look here and there.

I found this in friendster bulletin:

Philippines is......

Where every street has a basketball
court and every town has only one
public school.

Where even doctors, lawyers and
engineers are unemployed.

Where doctors study to become nurses
for employment abroad.


Where students pay more money than
they will earn afterwards.

Where school is considered the second
home and
the mall considered the third.


Where call-center employees earn more
money
than teachers and nurses.


Where everyone has his personal ghost
story and superstition.

Where mountains like Makiling and
Banahaw are considered holy places.


Where everything can be forged.

Where all kinds of animals are edible.


Where Starbucks coffee is more
expensive than gas.

Where driving 4 kms can take as much
as four hours.


Where flyovers bring you from the
freeway to the side
streets.


Where crossing the street involves
running for your dear life.

Where the tourist spots are where
Filipinos cannot afford to go.


Where the personal computer is mainly
used
for games and Friendster.


Where colonial mentality is
dishonestly denied!

Where 4 a.m. is not even considered
bedtime yet.


Where people can pay to defy the law.

Where everything and everyone is
spoofed.


Where even the poverty-stricken get to
wear Ralph Lauren and Tommy Hilfiger
(peke or ukay-ukay)!


Where the honking of car horns is a
way of life.

Where being called a bum is never
offensive.


Where floodwaters take up more than 90
percent
of the streets during the rainy season.


Where everyone has a relative abroad
who keeps them alive.

Where wearing your national colors
makes you baduy.


Where billiards is a sport, and darts
is a bar game.

Where even the poverty-stricken have
the latest cell phones. (GSM-galing sa
magnanakaw)


Where insurance does not work.

Where water can only be classified as
tap and dirty -
clean water is for sale (35 pesos per
gallon).


Where the church governs the people
(owwss!!!)
and where the government makes the
people pray for
miracles.
(Amen to that!)


Where University of the Philippines is
where
all the weird people go.

Ateneo is where all the nerds go.

La Salle is where all the Chinese go.

College of Saint Benilde is where all
the stupid Chinese go,

and University of Asia and the Pacific
is where all the
irrelevantly rich people go.


Where fast food is a diet meal.

Where traffic signs are merely
suggestions, not regulations.


Where all the trees in the city are
below six feet.

Where being mugged is normal. It
happens to everyone.


Where kids dream of becoming pilots,
doctors and basketball players.


Where rodents are normal house pets.

Where the definition of traffic is
the "non-movement" of vehicles.


Where the fighter planes of the 1940s
are used for military engagements, and
the new fighter planes are displayed
in museums.

Where cigarettes and alcohol are
necessity, and where the lottery is a
commodity.


Where soap operas tell the realities
of life
and where the news provides the drama.


Where actors make the rules and where
politicians provide the entertainment.

Where people can get away with
stealing trillions of pesos,
but not for a thousand.


Where being an hour late is still
considered punctual.
(Grabe talaga 'to!)


Where the squatters have more nerve to
complain
(even if they do not pay their tax)---

than those employed and have their tax
automatically
deducted from their salaries.

and finally..... .


Where everyone wants to leave the
country! BOWWWW

OMG! That is just sooooooooo true. I love the Philippines but I don't want to stay there anymore. I just want to visit, that's all.

***

On the way home, Micah messaged me and told me that Lucas and Aaron were on channel 5. Haha. Then I was like, "Huh? How come?" She said that they were supporting After The Rain, who are from church, in Live The Dream. So yea.. when I got home and watched too. Haha. But sad.. the band didn't get through the next round. It's ok, they still have another chance: Wild card.

I feel quite sad today. I don't wanna say it out here. But I'm just sad.. I know that I shouldn't take it to heart but somehow, it affects me quite a lot. If I say it out, you guys would laugh at me because it's just too silly. But to me, it's quite a big thing. Guess when you get older, some small issues become big issues. Shucks! But thank God that was like the VERY FIRST *toot toot* I've got that way. The rest are just the best! So fine, I'll just look on the *toot toot* rather than the *toot toot*. Haha. No, I won't give a single clue what it is. Hehe.

I'm getting fatter and fatter. I've been eating lotsa chocolate, ice cream and cake! I crave for those things whenever I have lots of things to do.. Especially school work! ROAR! Thank God, I have left with 1 more thing to finish! MY 1 AND ONLY EXAM PAPER! Yey! I'm just so happy. (=

I'm thirsty. I wanna drink COKE!!

Blog more next time. Gosh, there are such so many things that have happened in my life that I've not blogged yet! Wonder if I could ever remember them. I hope I could. I really love it when I read my previous entries.

Oh, how I love to see your messages flooding my inbox. Wahaha!

Shut up, Nelkris Kate!

d=
nights~

I'm NOT supposed to feel this way.

BEHAVE!

I need to get hold of myself. But as I'm typing this, I'm thinking of YOU and my stomach has soooooooooo many butterflies flying around! OMG! What on earth is happening? God, tell me!

This can't be happening again. NO!!! Oh no, my stomach! Gosh!! Why am I so excited? Why? There is NOTHING to be excited about. But if I say that, I'd be lying to myself. I can't explain what I'm feeling. I just can't. I need an explanation! I need to know the truth. I need to know everything but I just can't.

Oh man.. I'm super tense. I'm super everything! Gosh! I need to stop this feeling. Whatever you tell me makes me smile. Whatever you plan makes me have butterflies in my stomach. Whatever you think makes me blush.

GET HOLD OF YOURSELF, Nikki!

***

I was chatting with Kaye and I don't know what happened to my msn. I can't sign in again. DSN and key ports prob! )= But we had a webcam session and it was sooooooo fun! HAHA.