I just got home from a DATE. Hehe. With my dear aunt. HAHA. Hi Ate Marge! Hehe. She asked me out like, 5.30pm. Asked me to meet her at 7.45pm ok. She even said... It's gonna be an "AMAZING RACE". Waaaaa~! Then, she was late. She even warned me not to be late. LOL. It's been weeks since I last bonded with her. LOL. BONDED. Ya, MIGHTY BOND. LOL.. Whaaat? You don't understand? You slow la.. Haha. Joke! d=

We ate at New York New York and the food was extremely good. It's already 12.50am and I'm still FULL. OMG OMG OMG. This is very very bad la. How to lose weight? I could fast for a week in this condition. HAHA. I wish la~! We had quite a few photos of the food. But it's with her, so gotta wait..



Check this out:


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This thing is called: Singapore Flyer. LOL. It's stated at Marina Bay and it's very very huge! It's a Giant Observation Wheel and it's NOT a ferry's wheel. LOL. Well, from far I thought it was but it's massive so I thought again.. Hehe. It will consist of a wheel with a 150 metre diameter built over a three-storey terminal building for a total height of around 165 metres!! Imagine... OMG. It's exceptional, baby! I can't wait for it to officially open! Like, OMG! I'm gonna ride it. I don't care. And guess when the opening date is??
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14 FEBRUARY 2008!!!!
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And I CAN'T WAIT! Haha. I don't know why but I'm getting all excited. I really wanna ride it, with someone special. LOL. I know. It's still a long way to go and I don't have a someone extremely special now.. But even so, I wanna ride it. Maybe with my friends.. But then, I thought.. Sure there'll be thousands of couples who would want to spend their date up there. And for sure, I'll get jealous.. Maaaaaaan! I dislike getting jealous. It just itches my heart! Hahaha. Perhaps I'll just 'rent' a guy who can pose as my bf when I ride that flyer. Imagine.. When the capsule is on its highest, everyone would be kissing their partner.. Waaaaaa~ You imagine, I don't want to imagine la.. Haha. But then again, it's not worth 'renting' a guy. Coz you don't love him. Haaaaaaaaaay.. Life oh life..


Why does it have to happen? You loved someone with all your heart and in the end, BOOOOOOOOM. "Sorry, we're not meant to be. Bye!" URGH! Sometimes, the past still haunts me. LOL. As if it's a nightmare! Haha. I never ever will think it's a nightmare because, I've learnt so much in my past relationship and one of them is to be really grateful coz of the love that you have. It was hard to let go.. Because he was your everything. EVERYTHING, you know. All these years.. We were like almost meeting each other. Then one fine day, you're with no one. Like your other half is gone. Felt like you had no more reason to be still alive. You had no purpose in life. Felt like you're on this earth as a waste of space. Felt like the whole earth is on you, literally.


Life oh life. Why does it have to be this way? But hey, I've moved on and I'm so thankful & grateful that now, I know I'm in the right path. I'm looking at the prize. I just can't help but think of the past. I'm soooo jealous when I see anyone so happy with their future partner. But I stay strong. I wish I could always be strong. I know God has so much plans in my life. And He has so many reasons why my life was like that in the past, why He had to allow such things to happen to me. There are some things in life that it's just not meant to be. No matter how much you try, if it's not meant to be, then it's never gonna be.


We tried so much.. Planned so much for the future.. URGH.. I'm crying again. MAN. I hate this. But I'm getting so emotional. I hate it when I think about the plans that we made in the past. We had to wait only 2 more years.. But it's not never gonna happen anymore. But I believe that by that time, you're already happy with someone else. And me? I don't know. Sometimes, I think I'll be left on the shelf. HAHA. Really.. I know I think too much. But who would want an irritating girl like me? I don't even think there's anyone else who would love me like how much you loved me. I miss those days when you said that I'm so irritating but you still loved me so very much. Now, it's all JUST memories. I loved it when you said I was your number one. Felt so extremely good. But we're different. Just SOOOO very different. I loved you with all my heart but there was something missing in our relationship. It's God. He wasn't in it coz we have different ones..


Man, I miss you. The YOU. But you're not THE ONE for me. However, I'm glad you've also moved on. At least you don't pester and 'propose' to me anymore. HAHA. You're mad la. Hahaha. You don't deserve me. You're such a great guy. I'm sure you're gonna get a great girl as well. Better than me, perhaps? But still I think I'm the BEST la. Not to you but to my future partner. HAHAHA.


No, my ex doesn't know of this blog and I don't intend to tell him. I'm just letting my emotions go. Sometimes this happens when try to stay strong and don't talk about it because you don't want to remember it. My best friend is gone but I'm alright. I've gained a God who is more than enough for me.


Alright, this entry is soooooooo long. From food to Singapore Flyer to BGR to past. And now, I'm gonna watch tv. HUWAATTT??!!! ANTM4 on 5??!!! Yea, boy!


Thanks for reading this useless friggin' long entry.


*burppppppppppps* I'm still SOOOOOOO FULL!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you, Ate Marge! Muax.


Nightssss.. =D


**UPDATE**

I blogged about my ex doesn't mean I still want him back or whatsoever. It's all JUST memories ok and I don't feel that way anymore. That's why all is in past tense? If I want him, I can jolly well go back to him like nobody's business. Yes, sometimes I miss the past. But it's all over now and I never want to go back because I know someday, I'll be soooo in love again with THE ONE. It's just not easy when you're back to one after such a looooooooooooong time. But hey, I love my life now.